Trying To Conceive Part 2

After the first D&C we had a hard time understanding how there was no baby. It took a little while to get over the loss even though there was no baby, we still felt like we lost something. We decided to keep trying and on May 12 we found out I was pregnant again, we were SO excited but at the same time we were a little scared that the same thing might happen. We decided to tell  Hadlie that mommy had a baby in her tummy and that she would soon have a little brother or sister, she was so happy and would kiss my tummy everyday and say "I love you baby." 
We had our one year anniversary on June 19 and the next day had our first doctor's appointment, we went to the doctor, had a exam then went in for our ultrasound. We were so excited to see our new little baby that would soon join our family. As I was laying there watching the TV screen I asked the Ultrasound Tech if there was a heart beat, she asked me if I wanted her to tell us what she thought about the baby, we said yes and she said "You should be 10 weeks but the baby is only measuring 6 weeks and there is no heart beat."  I was completely devastated and began to cry. Cody stood by my side and held my hand while the doctor came in to talk to us about it. He reassured us that he would do everything he could to get us pregnant with a healthy baby no matter what it took. We made a appointment for another D&C for later that week and left. When we got in the truck I was still crying and Hadlie asked what was wrong, it was the hardest thing to have to tell our little 3 year old who was so happy about having a baby brother or sister on the way that our little baby had died, she began to cry and asking why and how did it happened. When we got home she ran into the bathroom, slammed the door and started crying again. I asked her what was wrong and she said "My baby brother died and I don't want to talk about it." My parents came down right away to be there for us and help comfort me, I sat on the couch with them, cried and cried while they held me and told me everything would be okay.
The next few days were so hard to get through, knowing that I had a baby in my tummy but it was not alive. I felt so empty, so alone and that no one knew what I was going through. Nothing seemed to comfort me, all I could do was cry for days until I had my D&C.
The morning of my D&C we dropped Hadlie off at Cody's parents house, his dad gave me a blessing to help me know that the D&C would turn out just fine and to help comfort me.  Everything turned out just fine and we went home to recover and grieve.